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This is the place where I sit
This is the part where I love you too much
This is as hard as it gets
‘Cause I’m getting tired or pretending I’m tough
I’m here if you want me
I’m yours you can hold me
I’m empty and taking and tumbling and braking


‘Cause you don’t see me
And you don’t need me
And you don’t love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could

I dream a world where you understand
That I dream a million sleepless nights
But I dream a fire when you’re touching my hand
But it twists into smoke when I turn on the lights
I’m speechless and faded
It’s too complicated
Is this how the book ends?
Nothing but good friends


This is the place in my heart
This is the place where I’m falling apart
Isn’t this just where we met?
And is this the last chance that I’ll ever get?
I wish I was lonely
Instead of just only
Crystal and see through and not enough to you


woooowwwww........Is this how the book ends?
Nothing but good friends.........loving someone but unfortunately you love the wrong person.....he didn't see you...wowww...ngenessnya menjadi sahabat merangkap pemuja rahasia....ckckckcckk...

pidaTo kematian dari kakakku...di pemakamanku suatu saat nanti.....

pidato kematian yang ditulis seorang kakak terbaik yang aku punya.......pidato kematian ini aku minta darinya.....from the one and only..my beloved brother...KenYooo....

An Elegy for Tunjung Sawitri

I was in the middle of an important client’s meeting when my cell-phone rang, and my sister Tunjung directly asked me to spend 5 minutes to talk. She suddenly asked me what would I said in her funeral ceremony if she passed-away. Oh my goodness, I was so angry when she said that. I just asked her to stop talking at that time and I went back to finish my meeting. She’s my only sister but we’re just like a stranger, matter of fact. Back in the time when we’re just the kids, there always been a fighting on both of us. Cries, screams and argues were heard all over the house everyday. At that moment, she might be someone that I really hated most. I remember how I used to make a taunt on her “ugly Tunjung, ugly Tunjung, you’re big nothing you’re big nothing.”

But leaving to Jakarta somehow change the way I feel about her. She had grown up and trying to conquer the world by herself. She’s smart, confident, independent, and I started to respect her. I was proud for anything she had ever done. Especially when she could prove that she could responsible on her study and did the part time job at the same time she took care our mom & dad. You know, people always said that life is unfair; well it’s true, it’s so damn true, but I guess I was lucky to have Filomena Tunjung Sawitri as my sister.

Now, my greatest regret is when I couldn’t be there, stayed by her side when the Lord took her. I also felt sorry because I couldn’t have a chance to say that I was very proud on her. I wished I could turn back the time. Well, I go to church rarely but I’ll promise to come everyday if Lord Jesus could bring her back just for a couple minutes, so I can tell her…how I missed her a lot and I’m sorry for not being a good brother in her life.

On the way home, back to Jogja; I made a little pray and I hope she can hear it from heaven;


“Angel north, angel south, angel east and angel west
Promise me please and do your best
Always guard my lovely Tunjung while she’s having rest”


Albertus Aryo Saloka
Jakarta, 08th of May 2009


* kakakku Albertus Aryo Saloko.......makasih yaaaaaaa...ku sayang kaaaawwwww.....><

just thinking about.........YOU

There are places I remember
All my life though some have changed
Some forever, not for better
Some have gone and some remain

All these places have their moments
With lovers and friends I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life I’ve loved them all

But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new

Though I know I’ll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I’ll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more

Though I remember I’ll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I’ll often stop and think about them
In my life I’ll love you more

In my life I’ll love you more .....

hahaha....LOL...Though I know I’ll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I’ll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more.....what a damn words..hahaha >.<.....

just wanna dedicate this to YOU...hahaha...I just admire you...hehehe....
only...admire...cos you are different so different and catch my eyes on YOU......^^



hhhhmmmmm....well.....special for my beloved one....NEMO