Wednesday, February 3, 2010

letter from someone who loved me that way....and for those whom I loved so much...



from the one and only "nemo" thanks for all...you've shared with me...hope this is gonna be a good beginning between you and me..and the world around us.... thanks for understanding me so well...that I'm a selfish, individualistic, having so highly - pride of confessing something...and yeah...full of carelessness...and i was so shock to read this...and thank you for loving me that way...^^b

February 2, 04.12am

Dear, Love

There maybe days when yew get up in the morning and things aren't the way yew had
hoped they would be. That's when yew have to tell yourself that things will get better. . . There r times when people disappoint yew and let yew down. But those r the times when yew must remind yourself to trust your own judgments and opinion to keep your life focused. . Read more on believing in yourself. There will be challenges to face and changes to make in your life, and it's up to yew to accept them. Constantly keep yourself headed in the right direction for yew. .it may not be easy at times but in those times of struggle yew will find a stronger sense of who yew are. So when the days come tat r filled with frustration and unexpected responsibilities, rememba to believe in yourself, in God and all yew want your life to be. Because the challenges and changes will only help yew to find the goals that yew know r meant to come true vo yew. Keep believing in God and in yourself.

Happy Birthday


With love. .



hmmmm....thanks yaaaa....this words means a lot for me...hehee...love yew...>_<> for everyone...for my family..my beloved mom and dad'...yg udah selalu support di belakang kapanpun dan dimanapun..makasih ya pa ma...udah selalu support tunjung and rela akhirnya nglepas tunjung sendiri disini...untuk kakak gue tersayang dan ceweknya yg slalu berusaha ada buat gue..i do love you...to my bestfriends...sahabat sahabat guee..guys..all of you are amazing and the best gifts for me from the beginning until now..jangan bosen bosen kasi doa and support yah..........and for you..who really loved me that way.... thanks wat smua support and doa doa kalian yah....makasih bangett....aku gag bisa bilang apa apa kecuali makasih ...dan sekali lagi..terima kasih...... Tuhan jahatkah aku dan egoiskah aku jika aku bilang...Tuhan aku sayang mer
eka dan aku ingin selamanya begini...just don't wanna let them go...Tuhan makasih...I love to be a simple girl and i do love my simple life..... officially missing you...

Love
Tunjung ^^b

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

meteor....shower




I can finally see,
That you're right there beside me,
I am not my own, For I have been made new Please don't let me go,
I desperately need you
I am not my own, For I have been made new Please don't let me go, I desperately need you


Owl city - METEOR SHOWER

Monday, February 1, 2010

If I were a boy......by Beyonce


If I were a boy even just for a day
I'd roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted
And go drink beer with the guys

And chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted
And I'd never get confronted for it
'Cause they stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her
'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken
So they'd think that I was sleeping alone

I'd put myself first
And make the rules as I go
'Cause I know that she'd be faithful
Waiting for me to come home, to come home

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her
'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake
Think I'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you're just a boy
You don't understand
And you don't understand, oh
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you wish you were a better man

You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
'Cause you're taking her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy

cukup...agak..kangen..rumah


something has surely changing in my life. something has surely changing in me. the way i look at days, the way i look at things, the way i look at my self is never be the same ever again. it's all changing....... and i don't even know whether it changing into a better or a worse thing. all i know is just, everything was changed. I, was changed. being here, in my empty-yet-full-of new room, in front of my laptop, writing this post, while Boys Like Girls feat Taylor swift Two Is Better Than One’s song played in background, i tried to remember what the hell is changing me. it's him. everyone knows that. but, i think it takes more than him to change me. maybe he did change a little piece of me, but the rest? i don't think it is only him….but almost part of my life is changing because of him… hhmmm…what about life…yeeaahh I guess and I think so Well….tampaknya phenomena gegar budaya dan phenomena melunturnya kemampuan berbahasa jawa gue sudah mulai terasa akhir akhir ini dan menempelnya logat “lo – gue” yang makin saja terasah dari hari ke hari….

Ya ya ya…hari ini benernya beberapa hari terakhir siihh gag cumin hari ni…, gue bener- bener menyadari satu hal yang sejujurnya aja bikin diri gue sendiri agak tercengang, fakta bahwa, "gue sama sekali ngga siap ninggalin kampong halaman gue... I mean Jogja….bahkan gue cenderung takut buat ngelepasin masa indah gue padahal selama ini gue pengen banget cepet- cepet Jogja dan cari suasana baru…tapiiii kok ternyata I feel that I wanna go home…..pengeeeeeeeeennnnn… ……..pulaaaannggg


pemikiran ini tiba- tiba timbul waktu tadi di kantor…seperti biasa berkutat dengan pekerjaan yg hmm…sebenarnya menyenangkan siihh…just….yah gimana ya…sedikit ..hhmmm..susahh ngomongnya…hmmm gini deh gara – gara foto bareng sahabat – sahabat busuk yang lalu lalang di screen saver……(berhubung gue lom pernah poto ama cowok gue yah…sory ya yank..poto anak anak duluu yaa yang aku pasang hihihii…)
tiba- tiba terlintas di kepala gue, "DAMN…….gue kagak bakalan dapetin moment moment di poto itu lagiiii…huksssss." dan pemikiran itu berkembang menjadi, "gila! gue bakal kangen banget nih ada momen- momen kayak gini..." dan bikin gue jadi tambah mikir, "gue kayaknya belom siap nih ninggalin hari- hari penuh hura- hura kayak gini..."
arghhh....!!!!!!!!........
.tapi…gue udah janji sama enyak babe dirumah….(betewe…baru semalem gue sadar kalo enyak nangis ditelpon…Gosh…I miss her so….she’s the reason for the tears drop on my pillow last night…..miss you mom…
kalo boleh jujur…hmmmm…
gue bener- bener ngga siap ninggalin banyak hal dari apa yang ada selama ini...
gue ngga siap ninggalin kenangan- kenangan indah sekaligus malesin di Jogja,, gue ngga siap ngelepas masa masa fun fun fun gue,, gue ngga siap berpisah sama temen- temen yang udah bareng- bareng sama gue dari up side down gue....., ngumpul rame- rame nge-ceng-in orang, ngomongin orang, ngegosip...nyanyi- nyanyi karokean bareng……
gue yakin, gua bakalan kangen banget sama semua ini.....

yah tapi siap gag siap…gue udah janji ma diri sendiri wat kuat kuatin di Jakarta….yah buat yg sebagian bilang Jakarta lebih kejam dari ibu tiri well….guys..ada benernya sih tapi…yah idup itu penuh resiko….hahah setidaknya tinggal di jogja juga kalo kagak ati ati juga bahaya…..
but thanks buat smua yang udah support banyak hal…sahabat – sahabat gue…yang udah bener bener nguat nguatin dari jauuhh….buat my beloved mom and dad…I’m sure I’m miss you a lot….sekarang baru kerasa kalo…tunjung kangen banget cerewet nya mereka masalah JAM MALAM….hehehe…disini aja kagak ada jam malem but….pulang juga kagak berani malem – malem secara udah kagak ada angkot wkkwkwkk……thanks buat my beloved brother and her girlfriend yg udah selalu berusaha ada nemenin selama di Jakarta….hmmmm…..love yew….the last but not least for my the one who loved me that way…..my boyfriend…hihihiii……….oke oke aku gag akan nangis nangis minta pulang lagiiii tiap homesick….. yah tapi sesekali boleh lha yaaa…hihihi….but thanks yah for giving a big support…hmmm…just remember the song of Boys like Girls….” I remember what you wore on the first day...You came into my life and I thought..."Hey, you know, this could be something... 'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away…And now I'm left with nothing…” hehehehe…..

but I guess you are right from the beginning when you came and said to me a long time ago that…”ikan…maybe two is better than one”…and I do believe now that your words was true….hehehehehe….anyway falling in love at the coffee shop is unbelievable hahahhaha……

well…..ini adalah re-post dari note gue di FB...sekedar curahan hati setelah sekian lama gag menuliskan apapun di notes fb gue.....i don’t even care if someone akan bilang gue lebay alay..well just don’t care…ahahahah ^^b

Saturday, January 30, 2010

damn....gue malu.....muka taro mane nih!!!!!


well....malu banget benernya gue ngepost blog ini...damn..cowok gue baca notes notes yang gue upload di FB..Gosh......

"aku benci kamu, sayang. dari ujung kaki sampe ujung kepala, aku benci kamu, sayang. dari wajah sampai wangi buatku semakin benci kamu, sayang.
dari hela napas sampai perkataan bikin aku terus benci kamu, sayang.

aku sangat membencimu yang sesekali hadir dalam hari ku.
lebih benci lagi kalau kamu tak hadir sama sekali.
aku benci sekali sama kamu bila kamu datang tiba- tiba.
namun aku akan semakin membenci kalau kamu tak datang tiba- tiba.
aku betul- betul benci kamu, sayang. benci dikecup. tapi lebih benci jika tidak dikecup. benci didekap. tapi lebih benci jika tidak didekap.
aku sangat benci kamu, sayang.
benci kamu yang bilang sayang.... meski akan lebih benci kalau kamu tak bilang sayang.

benci kamu yang bilang aku penting.... meski akan lebih benci kalau kamu tak bilang aku penting.

benci kamu yang bikin aku sayang setengah mati sama kamu.... meski aku mau benci kamu setengah mati. aku benci kamu, sayang......
tapi aku jauh lebih benci jika gag kamu sayang....."

well....apa mungkin ini yang disebut kangen mengkronis stadium atas yah...cuman susah aja bilang ke dia gue sayang..atau kangenn...huaaaaa.....
eniwei...gue rada gag' konsen nih jadinya mau kerja lagi...gilaaa...apa karena ini jumat dan orang orang kantor auranya udah weekend smua..jadi pada dateng telat agak males malesan juga sih jadinya....

PS: to someone I love..."nemo"...hahaha...gag' banget kadang gue punya panggilan kesayangan buat dia dengan panggilan itu but bagi gue...gue harap dia bakalan jadi kek' ikan nemo yang cuman setia ama pasangan dia...hihihii... (eh aku upload poto kamu nih..siapa tau entar ada yg nawar..hihihii...kalo lumayan mahal tawarannya..kamu aku lepas yah..hihihii....^^v piss)


hadeeeeeeeeeeeeeehhhhh ......kerja lagi ah...weww....semangat semangatt....lanjut tar lagi aja deh...hhhmm...ngeblog sambil dengerin lagu lama almarhum Chrisye "Untukku" yang didaur ulang Kahitna cukup meyakinkan gue that he's gonna be just fine out there..

Friday, January 29, 2010

kangen...part berapa yah...


Damn...jam segini masi di kantor dan mendadak komputer gue mati sendiri...well....tapi gapapalah..lagi males balik juga gue...
mendadak bete seharian gue ilang after cowok gue nemenin sharian...yeepp...we called it "pacaran Onlen"..hahaha eniwei...ntah knapa I found a good song from Destiny's Child "Brown Eyes"....Goshh....dalemmm banget aja ngrasain lagunya...uhuukk scara crita gue bangett..>_ "aku benci kamu, sayang. dari ujung kaki sampe ujung kepala, aku benci kamu, sayang. dari wajah sampai wangi buatku semakin benci kamu, sayang.
dari hela napas sampai perkataan bikin aku terus benci kamu, sayang.

aku sangat membencimu yang sesekali hadir dalam hari ku.
lebih benci lagi kalau kamu tak hadir sama sekali.
aku benci sekali sama kamu bila kamu datang tiba- tiba.
namun aku akan semakin membenci kalau kamu tak datang tiba- tiba.
aku betul- betul benci kamu, sayang. benci dikecup. tapi lebih benci jika tidak dikecup. benci didekap. tapi lebih benci jika tidak didekap.
aku sangat benci kamu, sayang.
benci kamu yang bilang sayang.... meski akan lebih benci kalau kamu tak bilang sayang.

benci kamu yang bilang aku penting.... meski akan lebih benci kalau kamu tak bilang aku penting.

benci kamu yang bikin aku sayang setengah mati sama kamu.... meski aku mau benci kamu setengah mati. aku benci kamu, sayang......
tapi aku jauh lebih benci jika gag kamu sayang....."

well....apa mungkin ini yang disebut kangen mengkronis stadium atas yah...cuman susah aja bilang ke dia gue sayang..atau kangenn...huaaaaa.....
eniwei...gue rada gag' konsen nih jadinya mau kerja lagi...gilaaa...apa karena ini jumat dan orang orang kantor auranya udah weekend smua..jadi pada dateng telat agak males malesan juga sih jadinya....


PS: to someone I love..."nemo"...hahaha...gag' banget kadang gue punya panggilan kesayangan buat dia dengan panggilan itu but bagi gue...gue harap dia bakalan jadi kek' ikan nemo yang cuman setia ama pasangan dia...hihihii... (eh aku upload poto kamu nih..siapa tau entar ada yg nawar..hihihii...kalo lumayan mahal tawarannya..kamu aku lepas yah..hihihii....^^v piss)


hadeeeeeeeeeeeeeehhhhh ......kerja lagi ah...weww....semangat semangatt....lanjut tar lagi aja deh...hhhmm...ngeblog sambil dengerin lagu lama almarhum Chrisye "Untukku" yang didaur ulang Kahitna cukup meyakinkan gue that he's gonna be just fine out there

sedikit berbagi coretan di pagi hari...d^^b

"love supposed to make you happy not miserable. what's the point by trying so hard to be together if you still can't be happy?
because love supposed to make you happy and not make you miserable, then if you still can't get the happiness of it, no matter how hard you try and how big your efforts, i think that isn't love..."

terkadang....
demi bersama dia (someone yg bikin kita serrr...serrr) , yang selalu kita slaah artikan sebagai kebahagiaan,
kita suka rela- rela aja melakukan apapun padahal kita tuh sampe udah berasa kita udah do everything we could sampe kayaknya udah poll- poll an banget, udah giving too much efforts.
terus kecewa sendiri waktu sadar usaha kita ngga ada artinya bahkan ngga dihargai sama sekali.

saat itu akupun kembali mikir,
if you think you already did everything or even anything, and you still can't get what you want,
there are two possibilities..
u haven't tried that hard or the thing doesn't belong to you..

lalu kecenderungan semua orang adalah menanti waktu yang tepat.
kayak saat kita menyadari klo bersama dia hanya menyakiti diri sendiri, kita masih aja nunggu waktu yang tepat buat ninggalin dia.
kita selalu menanti waktu yang tepat. the right time.selalu berpikir semua akan lebih baik kalo dilakukan pada waktunya. pada waktu yan tepat.

akupun selama ini juga mikir kayak gitu. sampe lagi- lagi bertanya ke gue entah untuk keberapa kali nya pada diri sendiri "when is the right time?"

akhirnya aku pun sadar klo selama ini salah berpikir. sebenernya there is no such a thing called 'right time'. there just only 'right' and 'time'. those phrases don't come together.
lagian mana ada sih waktu yang tepat? semua waktu ya tepat. yang nentuin tepat apa ngga nya kan masing2 orang sendiri. jadi ngga ada deh tu judulnya waktu yang tepat. semua tepat kalo lo berani ngambil tindakan. semua tepat kalo lu berani taking a risk. semua nya tepat.

Thursday, January 28, 2010

sedang ingin sejenak menulis tentang lope lope...ahaiii


waooowowwww.........sudah lama saia tak menulis dengan benar benar tertata.... ngga tau kenapa belakangan ini lagi ngga semangat.... hmmm.... ngga tau kenapa rasa- rasanya semangat nulis gue kempes aja gitu. ide seret. inspirasi curek. pokoknya bingung deh. apa ini pengaruh dari seminggu yang beraaaaatttttzz kemariiinnnn....hahaha well sebelumnya gue nulis ini bukan berarti aku pengn smua orang tau kalo aku jomblo..nooooo that's not the point lho yaaaaa... hmmm.... desperately seeking prince charming. terinspirasi dari sebuah judul film "desperately seeking susan", jadilah gue bikin note kali ini desperately seeking prince charming. hahahha... well, sebenernya sih ngga desperate juga, cuma supaya seru aja ceritanya.wahahaha.. jadi sebenernya, si gue ini lagi enek.........bukan enek siihh tapi jenuh aja.... lagi bosan menjalani kesendiriannya akibat percintaan yang sudah ringsek...buset kesannya oldis bangett mungkin juga disebabkan rasa kangen yang mengkronis terhadap si mantan ato malah cuma merindukan rasanya bersama si mantan tanpa ada embel2 kangen si mantan?...huakaka...eniwei
i buat mantan guee...gag usah GR..bukan berarti aku masi mkir macem2 tentang kalian wkwkwkwkwkk......eniwei...mantan is mantan...i appreciate the memories with you tapi ya sampei disitu cos smuanya sudah jalani sendiri2 kehidupan masing2...duileee sok wise hahahaha

haih.si gue jadi anak yang semakin aneh.hahaha...
well.kalo kata temennya si gue, gue ini kangen the idea of romance nya. the idea punya someone.
jadilah si gue mencoba mencari prince charming.
nah masalahnya....
mau dimana gue nyari prince charming hari gini?????
mau dimana gue nyari lelaki tampan, baik hati, rupawan, tak sombong, ramah, berbakti, menyenangkan, (kalo bisa) tajir, dan tak berpacar, serta ngga gay hari gini??
secara semua prince charming tuh udah unavailable alias taken alias udah punya pacar.
hih.
erh.i'm definately desperately seeking prince charming.
hahahahaha....

wahahahahahahahahaahahha..
...

aneeeeeeeehhhh.....oke...b
ack to the topic ....hmm..
aku mau pangeran...huakakaka
ah siapa cewe yang ngga mau pangeran?
tapi gue ngga butuh pangeran yang punya kerajaan, ato naek kuda putih bawa pedang ngelawan naga.
gue juga ngga butuh pangeran yang maha sempurna di segala aspek sampe nyaris too good to be true meski gue ga akan nolak juga kalo ada cowo begitu...
gue hanya mau pangeran yang cuma bisa sayang sama gue, bukan karena dia ngga bisa sayang orang lain, tapi karena dia ngga mau sayang orang lain selain gue *ahhhh...too much yah?*...wkwkwk....keluar naluri mau smuaaaa..hahaha

gue mau pangeran yang rela temenin gue kalo gue sakit, yang rela pijetin gue saat semua tulang gue serasa mau rontok dan perut gue serasa diremes- remes karena tamu bulanann nyang sooo damn painful....>_<" zzzzzzzzzzz gue mau pangeran yang gandeng tangan gue seolah takut gue bisa ilang, yang selalu peluk gue seolah hari itu hari terakhir dia peluk gue.....amit amit bukan berrati gue mau mati lhooo gue mau pangeran yang selalu sayang gue, ngga pduli gue bertingkah kayak anak kecil, ngga perduli nanti gue berubah jadi ngga lagi menyenangkan, ngga perduli nanti gue jadi terlalu cerewet...bawel...oouuchhh
tenang aku kalem gyahaaha

gue mau pangeran yang pura- pura ngga liat kalo gue nangis tapi diem- diem usaha bikin gue kembali seneng, yang ngga membiarkan gue menangis karena dia....uuuhh so swiittt

gue mau pangeran yang tersenyum saat gue teriak- teriak marah karena dia ceroboh kaki nya terkilir saat main bola, dan yang teriak- teriak marah karena kaki ku keseleo tapi masih kubawa jalan jauh- jauh.
gue mau pangeran yang ngga butuh alasan apa- apa untuk sayang sama gue...

hahahahaa..terlalu banyak gag sih mau nya...hmmm...tapi eniweii...sebenernya masa jomblo masih cukup menyenangkan kok...i mean the idea of being jomblo msi bisa kunikmati...pengen maen juga masi banyak temen yang bisa diajak...soo ya emang belom maksaiin siihh tapi kagak bisa muna kalo emang wajarlah n manusiawi liat orang mbojo juga kadag mupeng...hukakakaa

well.....benernya knapa tiba2 ngomongin ini juga gag ngerti...apa gara2 hari ini malem minggu dan nobody mengajakku to go out???? huakakakaka....zzzzzz...we
ll enjoy this note readers...

btw benernya ni udah lama gue buat dan udah lama ngendon di FB dan dibuatnya pun di masa masa kejayaan buseett kejayaan...i mean di masa masa gue masi menjadi jombloo sejati hihihiii...but gag da salahnya gue bagi disini....hopplllaaaaa happy happy go lucky fellaz...

kangen = anyang- anyangan...???!!! kok gag nyambung!!??!!

waaaooowwww...sudah subuh tapi efek kopi kok masih ampuh ya....begadang lagi...tak tik tuk depan komputer lagi...dan anyang - anyangan lagi....><" weww..udah lama banget gag denger istilah anyang - anyangn....

eniweeeiiii buat saya,
kangen itu kayak nahan pipis kelama-an sampai anyang- anyangan....(weww....rada gag mutu tpi suka suka donggg....)...bukan ayang ayangan lhooo!!! tapi anyang - anyangan...!!!

ada yang ngga tau anyang- anyang an? itu loh perasaan yang kayak pengen pipis terus- terus an disertai sakit perut dan rasa tak nyaman gara- gara nahan pipis kelama-an.
nah itu namanya anyang- anyang an.

dan menurut gue, yang namanya rindu, kangen, itu sama kayak anyang- anyang an.
kenapa?
soalnya kangen sama anyang- anyan an sama- sama bikin sakit dan ngga enak kalo ditahan, tapi bikin pengen terus kalo udah dilepas.

waduuhh kok jadi beribet....maksudnya gini,
kalo kita nahan pipis kelama-an sampe anyang-anyangan makin kita tahan makin bikin sakit perut, makin bikin bete, bikin diri jadi grumpy, cranky, not in the good mood deh. tapi giliran udah pipis, lega sih, tapi kita jadi pengen pipis terus gara- gara anyang- anyangan tadi. bolak- balik WC gara- gara berasanya pengen pipis terus..
nahan kangen juga gitu. makin lama ditahan makin bikin bete, bikin sakit, makin bikin mood jadi jelek, bikin jadi grumpy, cranky. dan pas giliran udah ketemu, lega sih, tapi ya bikin pengen ketemu terus, bikin nagih pengen terus- terus an ketemu.

jadi menurut gue kangen itu sama kayak anyang- anyangan.
hahahaa...

*ya Tuhan sumpah posting kali ini ngga penting abis!!!!!!*.....

begini to ternyata rasanya tak terlihat...

This is the place where I sit
This is the part where I love you too much
This is as hard as it gets
‘Cause I’m getting tired or pretending I’m tough
I’m here if you want me
I’m yours you can hold me
I’m empty and taking and tumbling and braking


‘Cause you don’t see me
And you don’t need me
And you don’t love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could

I dream a world where you understand
That I dream a million sleepless nights
But I dream a fire when you’re touching my hand
But it twists into smoke when I turn on the lights
I’m speechless and faded
It’s too complicated
Is this how the book ends?
Nothing but good friends


This is the place in my heart
This is the place where I’m falling apart
Isn’t this just where we met?
And is this the last chance that I’ll ever get?
I wish I was lonely
Instead of just only
Crystal and see through and not enough to you


woooowwwww........Is this how the book ends?
Nothing but good friends.........loving someone but unfortunately you love the wrong person.....he didn't see you...wowww...ngenessnya menjadi sahabat merangkap pemuja rahasia....ckckckcckk...

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pidato kematian yang ditulis seorang kakak terbaik yang aku punya.......pidato kematian ini aku minta darinya.....from the one and only..my beloved brother...KenYooo....


An Elegy for Tunjung Sawitri

I was in the middle of an important client’s meeting when my cell-phone rang, and my sister Tunjung directly asked me to spend 5 minutes to talk. She suddenly asked me what would I said in her funeral ceremony if she passed-away. Oh my goodness, I was so angry when she said that. I just asked her to stop talking at that time and I went back to finish my meeting. She’s my only sister but we’re just like a stranger, matter of fact. Back in the time when we’re just the kids, there always been a fighting on both of us. Cries, screams and argues were heard all over the house everyday. At that moment, she might be someone that I really hated most. I remember how I used to make a taunt on her “ugly Tunjung, ugly Tunjung, you’re big nothing you’re big nothing.”

But leaving to Jakarta somehow change the way I feel about her. She had grown up and trying to conquer the world by herself. She’s smart, confident, independent, and I started to respect her. I was proud for anything she had ever done. Especially when she could prove that she could responsible on her study and did the part time job at the same time she took care our mom & dad. You know, people always said that life is unfair; well it’s true, it’s so damn true, but I guess I was lucky to have Filomena Tunjung Sawitri as my sister.

Now, my greatest regret is when I couldn’t be there, stayed by her side when the Lord took her. I also felt sorry because I couldn’t have a chance to say that I was very proud on her. I wished I could turn back the time. Well, I go to church rarely but I’ll promise to come everyday if Lord Jesus could bring her back just for a couple minutes, so I can tell her…how I missed her a lot and I’m sorry for not being a good brother in her life.

On the way home, back to Jogja; I made a little pray and I hope she can hear it from heaven;


“Angel north, angel south, angel east and angel west
Promise me please and do your best
Always guard my lovely Tunjung while she’s having rest”


Albertus Aryo Saloka
Jakarta, 08th of May 2009


* kakakku Albertus Aryo Saloko.......makasih yaaaaaaa...ku sayang kaaaawwwww.....><

just thinking about.........YOU

There are places I remember
All my life though some have changed
Some forever, not for better
Some have gone and some remain

All these places have their moments
With lovers and friends I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life I’ve loved them all

But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new

Though I know I’ll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I’ll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more

Though I remember I’ll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I’ll often stop and think about them
In my life I’ll love you more

In my life I’ll love you more .....

hahaha....LOL...Though I know I’ll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I’ll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more.....what a damn words..hahaha >.<.....

just wanna dedicate this to YOU...hahaha...I just admire you...hehehe....
only...admire...cos you are different so different and catch my eyes on YOU......^^



hhhhmmmmm....well.....special for my beloved one....NEMO

Hopplaaaa......Brand Neu Me

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eniweiiii....beberapa blog yang akan gue post benernya merupakan notes notes lama yang udah kesimpen di FB...but gag da salahnya di post lagie khan hehehehe...eniwei...happr reading fellaz....